Hate it or Love itI started this zine with the declaration that I am a hopeful cynic and then clarified that statement with the disclaimer that I have hope, even if the only thing I hope for is the death of everyone else. In order for me to grow as a writer, I need to find ways to challenge myself, to say new things in a new way and to find new parts of my brain to unearth and explore. Toward that end I have been thinking about all the things in the world that I hate passionately. I could do entire issues about the things that I hate. Maybe I’ve done that already. In any case, the challenge for me here was to find things that I hate to the point of violent anger and then find at least one thing about it that is good, positive, healthy, useful, smart or in some way redeeming. This is not to say that the little good outweighs the bad, this is still Negative Capability. But this is to say that even Hitler liked dogs, some prize assholes probably died on 9/11 and sometimes getting cancer makes people change their ways for the better. Here are a few things that I have an irrational amount of hate for, some justifications for that hate, then some redeeming quality that doesn’t quite mitigate the evil but maybe means I would kill them last. The following video is an excerpt from a reading I did at a Pop-Up Zine shop in Manhattan. A friend of mine rented a retail space in SoHo for a weekend and we filled it up with zines and related items and had a weekend sale that culminated in a reading by everyone who was selling stuff.
I apologize for the audio, I recorded this with my GoPro.
Some titles are obscure, some are inside jokes, some are parodies and some are inspired by music. This one is a straight-up theft from Curtis Jackson because I like nothing more than rippin' off 50, yo. The Game I could take or leave but 50, he's a straight G. I just watched the official video for the first time and it's a totally different version from the one I know. The version that I love and listen to religiously is the G-Unit remix featuring Tony Yayo, Young Buck, Lloyd Banks and thankfully, no The Game at all. I'm gon' shine, homey, until my heart stop.